Wednesday, February 21, 2018

Day Dreaming

I blame our pastor, really I do. I don't think I'd gotten more than ten minutes into the copy of one of his recent sermons when my mind began to wander. It's not that Pastor Bryan is boring, or dry, or doesn't preach in a way we can understand; it's because our pastor definitely has an anointing. I don't think I've ever heard him preach when his message didn't hit home at some point. That's what happened as I listened this day. As he spoke, a scene from my childhood slowly eased it's way to the front of my mind:

When I was young, my family would take day trips to the beach. Mom would pack sandwiches in the cooler, and pack us into our swimsuits; Dad would pack us all into the station wagon, and off we'd go. Once Mom set up shop on the musty old Army blanket, that's where she remained for the rest of the day; Dad was the free spirit. He would play with us in the surf, splashing and squirting us, coaxing us to swim toward him.  

On one occasion -- the specific one that came to mind as I was listening to Pastor's sermon -- Dad was carrying me piggyback deeper and deeper into the Atlantic. I was excitedly urging him to keep going, my wet feet swinging back and forth along his sides, and my bottom bouncing up and down in his arms. I tightened my grip around his neck as he pressed on. I looked across the surface of the water and saw a discarded cupcake wrapper floating, tarnishing this perfect setting for fun. A few steps further, and there was another. And another. I can't recall if I spoke first, or if Dad offered up the explanation: they were not discarded wrappers at all, they were dead jellyfish.

As I sat down to write today, I was curious as to how Dad had immediately identified those stinging blobs as dead; so...Google to the rescue. The long and the short of it is, unless they are decomposed, or it is obvious they are being carried, lifeless by the current; unless you make contact, there are few ways to determine if they are truly dead. Perhaps Dad had poked one somehow -- he was sort of fearless that way -- or perhaps he did not wish to alarm me; either way, they were "dead" to me. We pressed on.

And that is the point at which my twisted little mind returned to the sermon; but it hadn't strayed far or long. You see, my momentary journey was, in some ways, a picture of the Christian walk. We can all remain "safely on shore". We can trust in what makes us feel comfortable; we can remain on what, for now, appears to be sturdy, dry ground. We can allow our fear to keep us beached on some musty old territory, with only a cooler full of PB&J for the rest of the trip. But where will that take us? And what happens when the tide rolls in, sweeping away our comfortable little roost?

Or, we can frolic in the surf with our Father. We can cling tightly to Him as He leads us further and further into the great Deep. We can ride safely in His arms toward what might normally frighten us were we to travel it on our own; we can fearlessly, excitedly urge Him to carry us "further! deeper!" And we can know, the dangers that may await us on our journey are dead to us; nothing more than harmless discarded rubbish, rendered ineffective and completely under the authority of the Living God. Our Father.

(Although, the old wagon didn't quite make it to the shore on this trip...)

Monday, February 19, 2018

What Is Your Kryptonite?

I have not posted in two weeks. Now, I could list a plethora of reasons: it's tax time and I'm trying to get paperwork together; Mom and I have been taking advantage of some sporadic breaks in the weather to get outside; I've been getting some of my seeds planted for Spring flowers and Summer vegetables -- just to name a few. But the real reason is Discouragement. There you have it (and it actually feels kind of liberating to see it in black and white).

I am beginning to realize Discouragement is my Kryptonite. Kryptonite, of course, was the one thing that was able to bring down Superman -- the legendary hero, faster than a speeding bullet, more powerful than a locomotive, able to leap tall buildings in a single bound. Well, I am no Superman, but I am an organized, intense, focused, multi-tasking wife, mom and daughter who, two weeks ago, picked up a dose of Green Kryptonite. Wikipedia describes Green Kryptonite as cancer-causing to humans, and even, fatal with long-term exposure. I know Kryptonite is fictional, but Discouragement is not.

Dis-couragement: the thing Satan uses to take away the boldness, the courage Christ has given me for Kingdom purposes. Strictly my definition, but one that reminds me of the origin of discouragement; the blessing of courage and its "bigger than me" purpose; and my responsibility to armor-up against discouragement. Think of it this way: to disrobe means to take off what you are wearing, to remove it. To dis-courage or to allow dis-couragement is to remove, or allow someone or something else to remove courage from you.

This may shock you, but Satan isn't the least bit interested in you. He isn't the least bit interested in me. He's not looking to "mess with us" in the sense that he wants to spill your morning cup of coffee or keep you from that promotion. He wants glory -- the kind of glory only God is due. What better way to get it than to take it from God via God's people? Make them weak, ineffective, and -- best of all -- focused on him! If we are not strong and courageous for Christ, we are not proclaiming the Gospel to those who do not know Him. If we are walking around with the weight of the world on our shoulders, we're not convincing anyone of the power of Christ in our lives. If we are trapped in the grip of discouragement, we are focused on our problems, our limitations, our past failures. Weak, ineffective, focused on our enemy. Just like Superman under the influence of Kryptonite, his eyes fixed on his nemesis, as he collapses to the ground.

Discouragement unchecked eats away at us like cancer. It peeks its head over the fence by reminding what happened the last time we went on a diet. It growls loudly when our husband comes home and asks what's for dinner. It lays on a full-body check when our children come home from school with leftover cupcakes from the bake sale. And brings us to ruin when we step on the bathroom scale the next morning. But discouragement never stays in one area of our lives; Satan wants it to metastasize to our goals, our relationships. Until we can no longer can bear the thought of donning that skimpy little negligee on our wedding anniversary. Until we can't fathom a family vacation at the beach, as long as we look like a whale. Until we are convinced God has let us down again. Why would He make me this way if He really loves me? On and on it goes, larger and larger it grows until we do nothing more than warm the sofa each day. Cancer-causing, even fatal.

But there's hope! Wikipedia says, "Characters have been shown to become immune to the effects of Green Kryptonite due to...long term absorption of sunlight." (Hahaha! Oh, yes! You know where I'm going with this, don't you?) Christians have been shown to become immune to the effects of Discouragement, Jealousy, Unforgiveness, Pride, _____________ (insert your Kryptonite here) due to long term absorption of Son-light!

And here is where I leave you to rid yourself of your Kryptonite. Open your Bibles. Talk to Jesus (and listen when He talks). Head to a Bible study. Sing a few worship songs. Talk a walk. Serve. Call a Christian friend. Accept the pastor's invitation for prayer after the service. Absorb as much Son-light as you possibly can. And eradicate the effects of Kryptonite in your life.